At the beginning of 2016, a new manager took over our department. Somehow, she didn’t like me and kept making things difficult for me.
I dreaded going to work every day and had to listen to many sermons and motivational videos at night to “recharge” so that I could have the strength to go to work the next day.
Time after time, God spoke to me through people, sermons and even promptings, to leave my job and that He had something better for me. But I just didn’t have the courage to leave because it was my first job after graduation.
It affected my health but I still held onto my job until I really couldn’t take it any longer and left in July 2016. I left the office feeling as if a 10,000-tonne weight had just lifted off my shoulders. I felt so relieved and at peace.
I started my job search. One month passed, two months passed, but still no result. I read in the news that Singapore might be entering technical recession and companies were having massive retrenchments.
Fear started to set in. “What if I remain unemployed for too long and companies become less willing to hire me? What if I would never ever going to get a job? What am I going to do with my bills?”
At that point, I finally understood what Pastor Prince meant when he said we ought to read the good news which is the Bible, rather than the bad news — the newspapers. The knowledge of a weak job market and becoming fearful as a result, did nothing to help me get a job. Instead, it was counterproductive.
Along the way, I read and heard testimonies about how other people had possessed their possessions. People who lost their job found something even better. I had faith and believed, but it did not happen to me. I wondered when I would be able to receive my restoration like the testimonies I had heard.
Friends in church began to share their testimonies on how they had found better jobs after going through something similar. But the more I heard their testimonies, the more bitter I grew towards God and at myself for quitting without a job. I felt ashamed and condemned for not being able to keep my job for a year and for a fresh graduate, this did not look good on my résumé.
Nevertheless, I kept listening to the Word and attending Sunday services. Although nothing seemed to be entering my mind, something was entering into my heart. I felt encouraged and uplifted each time I heard the Word. I stopped focusing on getting a job, but putting my trust in God for provision. Since He had provided for so many people whose testimonies I had heard, I believe He would provide for me.
Just like boiling a pot of soup, the longer you simmer it, the better the taste. Likewise, the longer I waited for my restoration, the better it seemed to get.
On 24 November 2016, I got a call from a multinational oil trading company offering me a job. I was also told that the start date would likely be in January 2017 but instead, I started work the following week — God wanted me to possess my possession in 2016!
It was really an undeserved and unmerited blessing because this role required someone who has a Master’s degree with at least two to three years of experience, whereas I am only a fresh graduate with no relevant experience.
When I was an undergraduate, I had wanted to go into oil trading, but there was no opportunity as the industry was going through a tough time. Since then, I had completely forgotten about my passion for it and did not think that I would have the chance to enter this industry.
But God remembered. He called me out of my previous job because He has prepared something even better for me!