Freed from 20-year porn addiction after hearing the gospel

I accepted Jesus and have been attending New Creation Church for many years. Despite so, I was still holding on to my past failures, hurts, and rejections and living with a secret pornography addiction.

Sometimes I lost control and let the person I secretly was break out. I became a different person—mean, angry, full of depressive and even suicidal thoughts. I gave up on fighting long ago and was so defeated that every time this happened, I shut myself down, silently accepting that the lustful man on the inside was just part of me.

Thankfully, things started to change in the year 2022. In January, I subscribed to the Gospel Partner programme because I wanted to support my pastor. I started listening to the sermons. The preaching was good as always, scriptural, straight to the point, and highly entertaining. I continued the subscription and kept listening until I could finish an entire sermon almost every day.

I just listened without much expectation. But freedom came in a way that I did not know how and when. All I could recall was that one time when the desire to watch pornography arose, a voice inside me said, “Stop it. You can.” I answered, “Yes.” Only much later did I understand that this was the moment I finally started receiving His grace. I just felt the desire become so weak that I could easily resist it. After that victory, my desire to watch pornography just kept decreasing until it was completely gone. It happened so super-naturally that I did not even realise it was a miracle that was delivering me from a 20-year bondage.

As I look back, I realise I have been radically transformed, seldom thinking about my past. I had no time for that. I became too busy enjoying a life full of Jesus’ abundance and His purposes for me. Bad thoughts and negative feelings still come, but I’ve learned to walk through them by knowing that I do not need to pretend. By Jesus’ blood, I AM the good, happy man that I always longed to be.

I felt led to write this testimony after I read Pastor Prince’s book Destined to Reign 15th Anniversary Edition on the Joseph Prince app. After seeing people giving their testimonies, I wanted to add my witness to the truth: I live right by believing right.

Thank you for the Gospel Partner programme and for making thousands of sermons available at my fingertips. If not, I wouldn’t encounter and know Jesus in such an accelerated way. Thank you, Pastor Prince, for tirelessly shouting out the true gospel of grace year after year.

Thank You, Jesus, my Savior, for loving me so much and making me righteous forever!

A brother from Singapore